HELD IN HER STORIES: How Macey took the baby off the pedestal.

Dec 2

Hey gorgeous mama-bear,

If you’ve ever thought…

⭐️“I should be further along by now.”
⭐️“Once I finally get pregnant, then I’ll feel okay.”
⭐️“If I don’t control this, it won’t happen…”

…then this week’s Fertile Ground episode is for you.

It’s part of my Held in Her Stories series — real women, real fertility journeys — and this one with my client Macey is… a lot. In the best, most honest way.

Macey got pregnant the very first month she tried. Then she miscarried two months later.

She was still bleeding from her loss when her best friends announced their pregnancy — the friends she had always dreamed of being pregnant with at the same time.

From there, she went straight into: “I need to get pregnant again. I need to catch up. I need that baby back. Once I get that baby, I’ll be okay.”

Every period felt like reliving the miscarriage. Every cycle felt like proof she had “failed” again.

Until she found my book Fertile Ground, and then joined Fertility Mind-Body Mastery — not because she was in a good place, but because she was miserable and would’ve tried anything to feel even a tiny bit of peace again. (Hint: You don’t have to feel perfect to ask for help!)

In this episode, Macey shares:

The moment she realised her suffering was coming more from her perspective than from her circumstances.
How she went from obsessively needing a baby to realising, “If I never had kids, my life is actually… beautiful.”
The difference between clean grief (“I’m sad this didn’t happen”) and dirty grief (“I messed up, I failed again”).
How she stopped treating her body like an enemy and started seeing it as a teammate.
The wild month, she genuinely found herself looking forward to her period — not because she didn’t want a baby, but because she knew she could hold herself through whatever came.
Why getting a puppy instead of waiting for a “hypothetical baby” became a nervous-system-level turning point… and what happened right after. 😉

This is not a before-and-after “I suffered, then I did this program, and now everything is perfect” story.

It’s a story about:

✨Letting go of the pressure to prove you’re worthy.

✨Taking the baby off the pedestal (without pretending you don’t want it).

✨Learning that you don’t have to be “doing more” to deserve love, support, or a beautiful life.

✨What it actually looks like to get your life back while you’re still on the fertility journey.

If your heart has been heavy lately…
If the holidays amplify the ache…
If you feel like everyone else is “moving on with their lives” while you’re stuck in baby limbo…

I would love for you to curl up with a tea, take a deep breath, and listen to this conversation. It’s soooo healing!

Lots of love,
Spenser 💗

P.S. If Macy’s story lands in your body and you’re craving this kind of clarity + support for yourself, you’ll love my group program Fertility Mind-Body Mastery — it’s where Macey learned these tools and where I coach women through this work every week. Join us here!