Somewhere along the way, many of us learned to close.
Not all at once. But slowly.
After disappointment. After heartbreak. After loss. After being told we were asking for too much. After wanting something a lot and not getting it.
So we closed our hearts… to protect ourselves.
We learned to manage expectations. We learned to be “responsible.” We learned to convince ourselves we didn’t really want more anyways. But underneath it all, many of us are just afraid to want and have more.
Afraid we’ll be disappointed. Afraid we’ll be judged. Afraid of loss. Afraid we’ll ask for too much. Afraid we’ll never get it. So we close.
Not just to disappointment, but to possibility. To pleasure. To receiving. To life itself.
Here’s the thing nobody says enough: closing was smart.
It wasn’t weakness. It wasn’t dysfunction. It was protection — the most reasonable response to hurt that was too big to feel all at once. Your nervous system did exactly what it was built to do: it kept you safe by keeping you guarded.
If you closed after disappointment, after loss, after being told you wanted too much — that wasn’t you failing. That was you surviving something real.
So this isn’t about ripping the walls down. You built them for a reason, and they did their job.
It wasn’t weakness. It wasn’t dysfunction. It was protection — the most reasonable response to hurt that was too big to feel all at once. Your nervous system did exactly what it was built to do: it kept you safe by keeping you guarded.
So here’s the real question. Not “why did I close” — that part makes sense.
It’s this:
Can I start to feel safe opening up again?
Or am I still busy recreating a threat that might not even be here anymore?
This is why you can do all the “right” things and still not reach you goal.
The business plan. The fertility protocol. The marriage therapy. The dating apps. The five-step morning routine. All the right moves, executed close to perfection.
But somewhere underneath all that doing, there’s a quieter rule running the whole show:
Don’t actually open up and believe things can actually change.
Because some part of you learned that being excited and then losing it again was worse than never believing at all. So you do everything right — and you stay closed the entire time. Not on purpose. In fact, very subconsciously. Because it feels safer that way. If you never fully let yourself want it and believe in it, it can’t fully break your heart when it doesn’t show up.
That’s not a flaw. That’s perfectionism doing exactly what it was designed to do: keep you safe by keeping you guarded, even while you’re working your ass off.
But closed is closed. No matter how good your strategy is.
Here’s the gap nobody talks about.
You can know you should trust yourself. You can want to risk believing again.
And then life happens — a setback, a no, a wave of “wtf am I doing” — and suddenly you feel like you’re right back at square one. Again.
If you’re a perfectionist, you were probably only ever taught to make room for the positive feelings. Confidence, certainty, gratitude — those are allowed. But fear, doubt, anger, grief? Those get treated like proof you’re doing it wrong. Like evidence to quickly file away and feel ashamed of.
So every single time a hard feeling shows up on the way to something you want — and it will, because that’s not a glitch, that’s the road — the shame is too heavy to carry. You collapse back to zero. Not because you’re weak. Because you were never taught how to feel that and keep going.
The road to your dreams was never a straight line. It was never going to be.
I want you to…
Imagine your life…
Imagine: Wanting something again — actually wanting it, not the polite, safe, "I'm fine either way” version.
Which means you stop talking yourself out of the business idea, the baby, the relationship, the renovation, the beautiful dress, the more regulated nervous system — before you've even let yourself admit it's there.
Imagine: Feeling excited… but then hearing news you weren’t expecting — and not making that mean your dreams aren’t meant for you.
You process it, offer yourself grace, and still believe in change because maybe there’s something you don’t know about the journey that will make much more sense looking back.
Imagine: Receiving the good thing without immediately bracing for it to fall apart.
Which means you actually enjoy the relationship instead of waiting for the other shoe to drop. You let the money come in without finding a way to hoard or spend it out of existence. You let yourself feel pregnant instead of holding your breath until the baby arrives.
Imagine: Your worth no longer hooked to whether the desire comes true.
Which means a "not yet" doesn't undo you. A delay doesn't mean you failed. You stay exactly as worthy on the hard Tuesday as you are on the day everything finally works out — because you never needed proof in the first place.
INTRODUCING:
OPEN — A room built for women who are ready to receive more than they're used to — without closing down when it feels like too much.
Because on the journey to what you want — there will be moments when change feels like a lot. There will be new emotions, and old thoughts that’ll arrive and want to keep you the same.
And this is the actual mechanism of why most people quit: they hit the edge of what feels normal/familiar, and that discomfort makes them retreat and close down, even though it's not actually a problem — it's just unfamiliar territory. And we’d rather have a familiar hell than an unfamiliar heaven.
OPEN teaches you how to keep going right there. In the exact spot where everyone else turns back.
You’ll learn to stay open to the whole journey, by becoming more safe to be:
Honest. Being vulnerable and just telling the truth about what life you actually desires, instead of labeling what you want as "irresponsible” or “too much.”
In the in-between. The waiting, the not-knowing, the "is this working" — without that uncertainty reading as danger.
With big sensations.The fear, the doubt, the jealousy when someone else gets it first — without each one meaning you're failing.
In the receiving mode. Good shit will show up. And it will feel itchy at first — because something in you is going to want to flinch when the good thing actually shows up.
One of those women who’s life is turning out even better than you could've imagined.Yes, even when the "who am I to have this much" thoughts show up too. Especially then.
Who this room is for:
Women whose minds jump straight to the worst-case scenario before they've even finished the thought. Ready for a brain that stops rehearsing disasters that haven't happened.
Women who've had the business idea saved in their drafts for two years. Ready to hit publish and watch what happens when she stops shielding her gifts from the world.
Women whose stomachs drop at their bank account. Ready for excess — bills paid, and a real question of what to do with all that $$$.
Women white-knuckling every day of the wait for their baby. Ready to believe that life might be working even when she can't see it.
Women whose conversations with their partner stay surface level. Ready for the kind of intimacy where she says the real thing and he doesn't flinch.
Women who walk into their own home and feel like a guest in it. Ready for a home that feels like a love letter to herself. Beautiful. Tasteful. Feminine.
Women whose Sundays come with a side of dread. Ready to wake up Monday, already plotting her next move — like life is something happening for her, not to her.
Women carrying 100% of the responsibility to make sure shit happens. Ready to find out what happens when she lets something go — and it still works out.
Inside the room:
Inside OPEN, is a room you show up to twice a month, where the conversation goes wherever it needs to go — because your life doesn’t follow a curriculum and neither do we.
A room of women who are doing the same terrifying, exhilarating thing you are: practicing trust instead of control. Practicing honesty instead of performance. Practicing asking, wanting and receiving more without making it mean she’s ungrateful.
Between calls, you’re not on your own. You’ve got a private community and a Telegram thread that doesn’t go quiet — for the 2am spiral, the small win nobody else will get excited about, the moment you need someone to remind you you’re not crazy.
Every month brings a new theme to dig into together. Not because you need more information. Because some things only shift in the company of other women going through it with you.
This isn’t a program you complete. It’s a room you keep coming back to.
What’s included:
✔ Bi-weekly live coaching — Tuesdays at 2pm MST. Real-time coaching where you say the actual thing and get actual support, not just a recorded lesson to watch alone.
✔ Private community. A space to process between calls — not for advice-giving or fixing, just for being witnessed and loved.
✔ Ongoing Telegram support. For the 2am spiral, the small win nobody else will get excited about, or the moment you just need someone to say "same."
✔ Monthly themes & conversations. A fresh angle each month to keep the work moving instead of going in circles.
✔ The OPEN Practice — your audio library of guided meditations, journal prompts, and short audios for the days the work needs to happen on the go, not just on a call.
✔ A room of women you'll build real relationships with. Not just classmates. Women who know your story and are cheering you on.
The Open Practice.
The Open Practice.
The OPEN Practice is the audio library inside the program. Short audios lessons, guided meditations, and journal prompts you can listen to on a walk, in the car, folding laundry — built to do one specific thing: help you have a goal, a purpose, something you’re actually working toward, without losing yourself in the getting there.
Because wanting more was never the problem. Making the want mean something about your worth is.
Inside The OPEN Practice:
Audios for the days you’ve slipped back into earning instead of trusting.
Meditations for when the wanting feels too vulnerable to sit with.
Journal prompts that ask the question underneath the goal: who am I trying to become, and is she someone I actually like?
Something to return to between calls — so the work doesn’t live only in the room. It lives in your actual Tuesday.
Why work with me?
Because I know what it’s like to close. And it fucking sucks.
It’s like pre-rejecting yourself even though you’re trying so hard.
And because I know what it’s like to close — and honestly, I still do sometimes (ask my husband) because I’m human — I know what it’s like to OPEN. To not shut down my heart “to be strong” but to remain open, available, allowing of all that life wants me to feel and experience. And trusting that the path is just as purposeful as the desire.
Even when you have so much evidence to stay closed. Like I did — after 8 years of chasing the thing I wanted most. My baby.
I’m proof that things can fucking change.
Your finances can change. Your body can change. Your relationships can change. Your life can change.
But you gotta learn how to OPEN UP.
Here’s what nobody tells you about getting what you want.
Even if you get it — the baby, the business, the love, the money — you still have to live with yourself.
And if you haven’t built a relationship with yourself that can hold the weight of a beautiful life, you’ll find a way to close back down to the size you’ve always been. Because that’s what feels familiar. That’s what feels safe.
The real goal of OPEN isn’t building a beautiful life.
It’s building a relationship with yourself that lets you actually enjoy it when you get there.
And when a woman learns to stay open — like, really open — life responds. Not perfectly. Not on her timeline. But it responds.
She gives birth to a healthy baby. She gets the role on Broadway. She gets approved for the loan on the dream home. She has the best orgasms of her life. (These were just some testimonials this past week in my coaching group.)
Not because she finally did everything “right.”
Because she finally stopped closing herself off from everything good and OPENED.
THE REAL QUESTIONS BECOME:
Can you stay open — or will you shut down the second it doesn't work on the first try?
Can you stay open — or will you wait for certainty before you let yourself take the one step you already know you need to take?
Can you stay open — or will you retreat the second someone misunderstands you?
Can you stay open — or will you talk yourself out of wanting it the second it starts to feel bigger than your fear?
Can you stay open — or will you find something wrong with it the moment you receive more than you're used to?
That's the work. That's OPEN.
Let’s be honest about what’s actually stopping you.
Sure, we can make it about money or time.
But if you’re reading this far, deep down… it’s the part of you that’s tried to open up before — and watched herself close right back down. The part that’s not sure she can trust herself to stay open long enough for anything to actually change.
That’s the real hesitation. And it makes complete sense.
But here’s what I want you to know: that distrust of yourself? That’s exactly what OPEN is designed to restore. Taught by someone who knows exactly what it’s like.
You’re not joining because you’ve already figured out how to stay open. You’re joining because you haven’t — and you’re ready to learn.
The trust fall isn’t into the program. It’s back into yourself.
And that’s what we do here.
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FAQ
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That’s not a reason not to join — that’s the reason OPEN exists. Most programs give you the insight and leave you alone to integrate it. OPEN is built around the part that actually makes things stick: showing up consistently, in community, with a coach who remembers what you said last month and asks about it this month. The structure is the point.
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The calls are on Tuesdays at 2pm MST, twice a month. That’s two hours a month of live coaching. The OPEN Practice audios are designed for your commute, your walk, your folding laundry. This isn’t another thing on your list. It’s the thing that makes everything else on your list feel different.
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I think that’s actually the wrong question — and I say that with love. We’re conditioned to believe we only deserve things we need, and that every decision has to be justified by necessity first. So we go looking for proof we “need” something before we’ll let ourselves want it.
But this was never about need. It’s about want. Do you want to stop labeling your desires as irresponsible? Do you want to actually receive the good thing instead of flinching when it shows up? Do you want to find out what your life looks like when you stop closing down every time it gets to be a lot?
If those are things you want, that’s what matters. That’s what OPEN is for.
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That fear? That’s the work. The woman who’s scared she’ll close back down is exactly who this room is for. You don’t have to show up perfectly. You just have to show up. The room will meet you wherever you are.
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Therapy is a beautiful thing. This isn’t it. OPEN isn’t about processing your past — it’s about building a different relationship with your present. Less excavation, more practice. Less “why am I like this” and more “what do I want to do about it.”
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No refunds. This is a 3-month minimum commitment — because real transformation takes longer than a month, and because the woman who stays is always the one who benefits most. If you have questions before joining, reach out at info@spenserbrassard.com
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$444 USD/month
- $444/month.
- 3-month minimum. Cancel anytime after that.
- Stay as long as you want.
3 months enough time to actually feel change — past the part where it's uncomfortable and into the part where it's beginning to change how you live now.
Stay as long as you want after that. Most women don't want to leave.
